or...

bumps...bruises...scrapes...

childhood fun? or...


withdrawn...pain...sadness...

moody teenager? or...


hitting...screaming...swearing...

stupid meaningless fights? or...


sobbing...crying...weeping...

heartbreak? or...


smiling...hiding...pretending...

everything ok? or...


No...Stop...Don't...

did he listen? or...

MOVING ON

Moving on
by Roger Creager

You packed up your things and then you said goodbye.
You'd think after all we shared, you could tell me why.
The flames were burning hot baby, too hot to hold.
But, now I see your love was burning cold.
But don't you worry about me.
I'm feeling sorry for you, and when I sleep tonight,
At least I'll know my love is true.
Baby I'm better than you.
I'm moving on to a place where love is strong.
I'm moving on.
Does this sound like a sad country song?
I dusted myself off and I'm back in the saddle again.
I lost in love with you but now I'm ready to win and I'm moving on.
No more trying to win you back.
No more crying over what I thought we had.
When I said, "I need you" and that I was all alone,
Good old compassionate you slammed down the phone.
But don't you worry about me.
I'm feeling sorry for you, and when I sleep tonight,
At least I'll know my love is true.
Baby I'm better than you.
I'm moving on to a place where love is strong.
I'm moving on.
Does this sound like a sad country song?
I dusted myself off and I'm back in the saddle again.
I lost in love with you but now I'm ready to win and I'm moving on.
So save your money and save your time.
Save your ragged little mind.
You turned your love off like switch.
Just think of all this love you missed.
I'm moving on to a place where love is strong.
I'm moving on.
Does this sound like sad country song?
You probably thought I'd write a sad country song.
Does this sound like a sad country song?

todays thoughts....

-Yesterday I got purple sheets. they are amazing. They are 400 thread count, and comfy. :)

-Today, I was asked by a friend to room with them next year!! yay. room mate problem solved! no living by myself. :) I am so excited to live with them, and have a less stressful living situation. :)

-I am tired of being alone, and it has only been a week. :(

-I really want an intense neck and back rub.

-Friends come, and friends go.

-I really wish laundry could rotate itself.

-Sleep is NOT over rated. It is amazingly fantastic!

Loathing Love

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you... It tears you apart and leaves you crying in the darkness curled up alone, huddled under a pile of blankets. so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. The worst kind of pain there is. I hate love.
......so why do I want it?